My story: Hitting an all-time-low

Three years ago I was at an all time low point in my life. I felt so lost and didn’t feel like myself anymore. I’d look in the mirror or see photos of myself and I didn’t even know who I was looking at.

I was having a hard time sleeping. I’d wake in the middle of the night feeling super emotional. I’d spend hours awake on the couch often in tears. I started having anxiety at work and the emotions would strike at any point. My entire body ached and I stared having vertigo-like symptoms.

The worst part is I had zero energy or motivation to do much of anything. Especially, the things I loved. I hid a lot of this from almost everyone because I was ashamed and believed I had to appear as though I had my 💩together.

After months of feeling this way I was straight up exhausted. I knew I couldn’t survive in this state. I knew I needed help because I no longer knew how to help myself.

I searched for local therapists and scrolled their websites and read reviews. I found one that I really liked based on what others had to say about her and decided to just try. So I emailed and requested and appointment.

She was booked for the next month, but I decided to hold tight until then. I remember feeling lighter already. Just by having an appointment scheduled I felt a glimmer of hope.

Those next five months were an important turning point for me. I had years of emotional build up. Years of believing I didn’t have time to slow down and acknowledge my emotions. Years of believing I had to take care of others before I took care of myself.

That lack of self-care was showing up as depression, anxiety, exhaustion, vertigo, headaches, weight gain and more.

I learned a lot about myself in the first few weeks of therapy. A lot of the darkness started clearing and I could feel the light moving back in.

As I started to feel more energetic and ready for more, I added a morning routine. It was clunky at first, but gosh darn-it I tried so hard!

Once I was able to stay awake and semi-function during my morning journaling, I decided I really needed consistent daily movement. I knew it could help with my depression and anxiety so I was willing to try.

Right around this same time, the Universe connected me with my Coach. She helped me fine tune my morning routine, start a workout program and join a community that would change SO much for me.

Inside of this community I felt understood, supported and really freaking excited to keep showing up. And 2.5 years later I am still showing up for myself! 💪🏻

I’ve never felt so strong, confident, content and desire to take messy-action.

It’s been far from perfect, but I don’t want it to be.

Perfection isn’t real.

I want this life to feel real, authentic, a little messy and joyful.

It also helped me find my path to Coaching, where I have the honor of helping others with their own wellness journey.

It changed my life for the best. ❤️

I share my story in hopes of letting others know they are not alone. Some parts of your story might be similar to mine, but we are all going through some heavy things in life.

Life is too short to feel so much pain and do it alone. Reach out for help with zero shame. We are human and we all need help.

My inbox and heart are always open. 💌